Sunday, September 29, 2013

How Does Light Shine Through?



How Does Light Shine Through?


We all want to look our best and put our best foot forward. We are all on the potter’s wheel and are apart of the master designer.

The Master molds us, shapes us, He puts His hand on us and digs deep into our very soul…

Once we are shaped we are handcrafted and sanded down into a beautiful vessel somewhat like a vase. There are hours, days, and sometimes years involved with the process of our shape. We are put in the fire and we are painted until we become just what God can use us for His glory.

Sometimes though…

We are sitting on the shelf and we are doing our part and we are holding the water that we were designed to hold. There are beautiful flowers in our vase and they are blooming. Then something happens and the flowers begin to die and the water begins to dry up in our lives. We were once full but we stopped getting fresh water from the Master and the flowers stopped budding in our vase.

Then…

The unthinkable happens the vase tips over from the shelf and we are broken into little pieces. There are pieces all over the room and it seems just like humpty dumpty we can never be put back together again.

How can I ever fulfill my purpose again?

Then comes the Master…

He lovingly scoops the pieces into His big all powerful hands. He searches for all the pieces of our vase. He looks in the dark corners, under the chairs, and behind every shut door. He scoops up every shard and sits down at His wheel and begins to glue us back together again.

The pieces take time to put back together. The Master lovingly spends countless hours putting back together His creation. The glue is painful; the pieces don’t fit in all the exact same places. There are shards of guilt, pain, fear, oppression, depression, anxiety, doubt, shame, and anguish that He lovingly decides to remove from the original design.

The once put together vase now looks like a puzzle or rather a road map. There are intersections and jigsaws. There are juts and jags. There are highways and roadways. There are open cracks in the new creation.

But the open cracks allow light to shine through the vase that never could shine through before. The original design only had room to be filled and it never had a purpose for light to shine through. No longer can the vase hold water but instead it overflows and runs out over the sides.

The Vase= our life.

Once we are broken then when Jesus puts us back together we are still a vessel but we serve a greater purpose. We have all the cracks in us but that just means His light can shine through us. Yes, we were once beautiful sitting on the shelf but now His beauty is able to inhabit our lives. His beauty is what shines through us in our broken place.

We think all is lost and that it is all over because we are not as we once were. But really we are finally fulfilling our purpose because now the light of Jesus’ love can shine through the cracks of our broken life. Only He has the understanding to our roadmap and only He can find all the pieces to our puzzle.

Don’t dismay if God gave you a promise it will come to pass. He is the one who gave the promise so that means He is the one who has to fulfill the promise. He owns our promises and God cannot lie, so what He has said will come to pass. And if it doesn’t for some reason happen the way that you think, still praise Him because at any moment He will fulfill His word in your life!

Don’t be afraid of the process of breaking… Because it is the brokenness that you become the most beautiful vessel as His light shines through your life!

How does light shine through?
The light shines through the cracks of brokenness.

Monday, September 23, 2013

What's the point?



What’s the point?


I have asked this question a lot in the past year. What is the point Lord? I don’t really have the words to describe how hard it is to do something you don’t want to do. I really can only think of one thing I did this past year that I really wanted to do, well maybe two things. I went on my road trip and God used it to open my eyes to His purpose. The other thing well it has been a disaster from the start. So, what’s the point Lord?

The point is this when you sell out and say, “Not my will but thy will be done.” You truly do lose your free will. I mean you can keep trying to do it your own way but God never seems to let that happen when you sell out. I have said this so many times but it is true for my life. When God says “Go” I just have to do what He says. It blows my mind every time I listen and maybe not right away but I see the hand of the Lord on my life. Most of the time it is way after the fact but it still holds true. I was reminded of His plan for me today.

I was sitting in the church and yes as I often am crying lol (there is a reason for that statement.) God reminded me of so many promises. I went reading through my prayer journals and I am always amazed when I do that because I see patterns of how God has been talking to me. Months can have gone by and I see the same words and phrases He has given me and it becomes its own confirmation. Last night at church there was a message that was preached about puzzle pieces and it reminded me of something God had given me in early July when I moved to Longview. I found it and it blew my mind.

God always confirms His word and it will not return void!

I saw so many things in my journals that made no sense a year ago take form and it was like the light was shining. It makes so much more sense to me now. I would like to go on record saying that I truly am a selfish person. God has been working this out of me for so long but when you look back over the promises and then you see the results in front of you, the answer is simple, “I am still selfish”. I am thankful for a God who tries to bring that out so that I don’t have to stay in the same destructive pattern. I have failed miserably but as my pastor from home has told me, “God is in control.”

Ouch! that is a hard one to not lose sight of because we as people get so wrapped up in our own thoughts that we get sidetracked from the vision at hand. God has been speaking to me about my focus and how that it has to be on Him.

I thought it was…

I thought I was doing what He was telling me to do. It is sad to point out that I always fail in this area of my life. I put my best foot forward and welp it always gets misconstrued… lol some day I will learn. I will say this though, I may have missed the mark but God is still in control and knows the outcome. I am sure glad He knows what the point is?

I am only a servant in the army of the Lord. I can’t look to the left or to the right and neither can you my friends. The devil brings distractions to keep us from the mission at hand. The point is: “The souls are white and ready to harvest.” And when you sell out, you have to be willing to go where you’d rather give your eye teeth not to go. I said it once today I would rather be in Siberia. It would be easier to crawl up in a corner and die.

But not this time Devil…

I don’t think I have ever been so mad at the devil. When I am mad it makes me fight stronger in the Lord. No weapon formed against us shall prosper! You may have won the battle but the end of the book says, “We win!”

Don’t give up on your dream just before it comes to pass! I encourage you to throw yourself at the altar of surrender. You think it is too much to bear, (I know I have been there.) But I promise you there is beauty in the ashes. He will resurrect you from the dead. He made you a promise and the only reason there are unfulfilled promises is because you stopped pursuing them. My pastor preached this week that you have to kill your promises because if you do God will raise them from the dead. If Abraham was willing to kill his only son without God living inside him, then how much more should you and I kill my promise? I give up trying to do it my way, obviously I umm stink at it!

The whole point is: people will laugh at you, they will mock you, they will misunderstand you, they will turn their back on you, they will judge you, they won't forgive you, and possibly, yes, hate you. But you don’t answer to them; they are not your Master and Judge. So I implore you…Follow through with God’s point for your life. It is always darkest before the dawn…

God Bless you my friends…


Monday, September 9, 2013

What's your dream?

What is your dream? 
What kind of person are you? Are you happy? Are you sad? Are you friendly? 
Or are you distant?



These might be the kinds of personalities that you portray to the outside world. But who are you really? You might put on a happy smile, but is that who you really are? I will tell you a piece of who I am


"It wasn't my dream but I got here as fast as I could to help it become a reality" 



This year has been my year of tears...

I have spent 365 days and counting, praying about the City of Longview, Texas. I have been heartbroken and heartsick. I have been given dreams, promises, and visions of a little town in East Texas. But through the tears I have held my head high and put on a happy face. Because I believe that you should always project the Jesus you love first and foremost.

Do I have it all together? Surely not my friends. God has spent the past 6 months at least refining who I am. In that process I have realized that I have put my best foot forward but that hasn’t been the real me for the most part. Yes, my joy is in the Lord and I am overwhelmed by his love and mercy

But my tears have been for the souls I see in my prayers. The faces I see in my dreams. And the multitudes I see in my visionsI asked God a question this year, “How can I do it alone?” And then I asked, “How can I do it if I am not in Longview?” The thing that broke my heart mostly this past year was the possibility of not reaching the multitudes because I wasn’t where I was supposed to be.

But then God made a way when there seemed to be no way

On July 22nd I officially moved to Longview, TX and today September 9th I officially handed to our new landlord our signed copy of our lease agreement for Friendship Community House in Longview, TX. In less than two months of me moving to Longview, God opened the most amazing door! We actually are getting two houses for the price of one!  

"The Community House" 

"The Dream House" 






The houses literally 
fell into our laps. And as I have already said to others, stand back and marvel at his glory. When God gets ready to move, He does it better than we could ask or think!

The house will be about becoming part of a community and reaching the forgotten in their own neighborhood. It is about building lasting relationships and friendships. It is about making a difference and taking the time to really get to know people.

We will speak the truth But first we will show them the love of Jesus Christ so we can add them to our family and then to the family of God. What good is it to win someone to God and then just have them walk right back out the door? Not everyone will come to a church but they will come to a house! Not everyone will come to a fellowship hall but everyone will come to a neighborhood BBQ. Not everyone will come to the altar and bow their heads but they will join hands with their neighbors in a common circle of friendship. There is power in a house because in it families are made and friends are there to last a lifetime!

I am honored to work beside the best man I know, Mr. Gus LaFosse. He and I have been on a journey that has had many twists in the road but in the end (which now is only the beginning) there is no one I would rather work beside! I believe in him and his vision. God allowed me the honor to buy into his vision and dream. God told me a year ago that this was only the first step and I have only just arrived. Can you imagine where God will take us in a year?

There are many ways to get involved:

1)  Donate time
2)Donate money
3)         Donate supplies


I will give more specifics later but immediately you can sow a seed for our ministry.

1)      You can donate at least $500 to be in the bronze circle and have your name or company engraved on a brick paver.

2)   You can become a monthly sponsor and paypal lets you set up an autopay method. Or you can give a one-time love offering.
   www.mybrokenvessel.blogspot.com has    a link to donate

3)   You can contact me directly to pay with all major credit cards.
4)    Or you can send me a check to 1000 S Danville Rd Apt 521 Kilgore, TX 75662 made payable to Linda Hanekamp or Gus LaFosse.
5)   You can also order my book Unfolding the Rose 



  which is available for purchase on this web blog. The proceeds go to funding the Community House! 

  You can also order my amazing friend Gus LaFosse's book, The Truth About Walls and Bridges 

         at his blog www.friendshipcommunityhouse.org 

*If you order both books together we will combine shipping into one shipping cost! 

I am amazed that in one short year of tears that God has brought the first phase of my promise to me. There is nothing that is impossible for God and if He is in it then there is no mountain that cannot be moved. I am living proof that His word is true and He will do all He has said He will do and more.

So I ask the question again, “What kind of person are you?”  Move beyond your facade and your tears...Are you willing to move into your promise? I believe in you! Just like I maybe strong on the outside but that is a faรงade I am weak but He is strong! He has given me the strength to make it to the first phase of my promise and in that I will hang tight for the rest of the promise


Help us make our dreams and promises a reality!! Partner with us for Friendship Community House!
www.friendshipcommunityhouse.org